background preloader

Adventures in Depression

Adventures in Depression
Some people have a legitimate reason to feel depressed, but not me. I just woke up one day feeling sad and helpless for absolutely no reason. It's disappointing to feel sad for no reason. Sadness can be almost pleasantly indulgent when you have a way to justify it - you can listen to sad music and imagine yourself as the protagonist in a dramatic movie. But my sadness didn't have a purpose. Essentially, I was being robbed of my right to feel self pity, which is the only redeeming part of sadness. And for a little bit, that was a good enough reason to pity myself. Standing around feeling sorry for myself was momentarily exhilarating, but I grew tired of it quickly. I tried to force myself to not be sad. But trying to use willpower to overcome the apathetic sort of sadness that accompanies depression is like a person with no arms trying to punch themselves until their hands grow back. When I couldn't will myself to not be sad, I became frustrated and angry. Which made me more sad.

Depression Part Two I remember being endlessly entertained by the adventures of my toys. Some days they died repeated, violent deaths, other days they traveled to space or discussed my swim lessons and how I absolutely should be allowed in the deep end of the pool, especially since I was such a talented doggy-paddler. I didn't understand why it was fun for me, it just was. But as I grew older, it became harder and harder to access that expansive imaginary space that made my toys fun. I played out all the same story lines that had been fun before, but the meaning had disappeared. Depression feels almost exactly like that, except about everything. At first, though, the invulnerability that accompanied the detachment was exhilarating. The beginning of my depression had been nothing but feelings, so the emotional deadening that followed was a welcome relief. Which leads to horrible, soul-decaying boredom. Months oozed by, and I gradually came to accept that maybe enjoyment was not a thing I got to feel anymore.

Verb Tense Exercise 6 Since computers were first introduced to the public in the early 1980's, technology (change) a great deal. The first computers (be) simple machines designed for basic tasks. They (have, not) much memory and they (be, not) very powerful. Early computers were often quite expensive and customers often (pay) thousands of dollars for machines which actually (do) very little. Most computers (be) separate, individual machines used mostly as expensive typewriters or for playing games. Times (change) . Why Nikola Tesla was the greatest geek who ever lived Additional notes from the author: If you want to learn more about Tesla, I highly recommend reading Tesla: Man Out of Time Also, this Badass of the week by Ben Thompson is what originally inspired me to write a comic about Tesla. Ben's also got a book out which is packed full of awesome. There's an old movie from the 80s on Netflix Instant Queue right now about Tesla: The Secret of Nikola Tesla.

Watercolor by techgnotic on deviantART Tata Institute of Social Sciences Candidates interested in applying for Ph.D in Women's Studies or Social Sciences at Hyderabad have two options. One, apply to go through the admission process to join TISS Hyderabad and be guided by TISS Hyderabad Faculty. Two, apply to go through the process of TISS admission, register as scholars with TISS but have guides from Council for Social Development (CSD), Hyderabad and also receive ICSSR Fellowship, if candidate is not in employment or does not have any other Fellowship. However, all other rules pertaining to the TISS Ph.D programme apply to candidates registered with CSD. TISS does not make any distinction among research scholars as full time and part time. The candidates, who have not completed their M.Phil and are selected for Direct Ph.D., are expected to fulfill course work requirement either by attending regular courses held at the respective campuses OR by attending the Modular workshops offered every semester.

An Essay On Depression Depression is not only a state of being sad, it is a disease that conquers the ability to feel emotion, whether good or bad, whatsoever. Depression not only involves the mind, it also involves the body and thoughts. In different cultures some complain of excessive headaches and extreme pain and this is identified as depression, moderate or otherwise. Major Depression is the most severe case of depression that there is. Dysthymic Depression is a low level of depression that lasts up to at least two years and in most cases longer. Bipolar Depression, also known as, Manic Depression, is yet another type of Depression. Although all age groups are open to depression, teenagers are the most common to be heard of being affected by the disease. Depression’s cost to the United States economy every year is estimated at forty-four billion dollars. One great risk for becoming depressed is if you smoke. Genes also have a lot to do with Depression. There are many symptoms of depression.

Amazing Underground Art In Stockholm’s Metro Station EmailEmail A casual underground ride in Stockholm becomes quite a treat for the eyes of the passengers, as most of the stations in the capital of Sweden are showcasing some amazing underground artwork. Russian software architect Alexander Dragunov must’ve really enjoyed his rides as well, and made some stunning shots of the underground artwork. The pictures below were taken in the Solna Centrum station, were the cave-like installations were created by artists Anders Aberg and Karl-Olov Bjor back in the 1970s. Ever since 19th century, a debate has been going on in Sweden about the need to make art more accessible to people outside the salons. No wonder then that with the first proper underground line opened in 1950, various artwork was installed in the stations shortly. Website:

Sample Answers for IAS Mains Examination(UPSC) by Rachit Raj – Part 1 | IAS Dream Hello Students, As we received a lot of request from students for uploading the sample answers by Rachit Raj, that he used to write while preparing for the UPSC Mains examination we are going to do that in the following blog. We are sure these answers will be very useful for the students who are preparing for the Mains Examination. These are hand-written notes so kindly bear with the quality of the same. Sample Answer 1

How To Be Kind To Yourself “Wherever there is a human being, there is an opportunity for a kindness” – Seneca A couple of days ago someone said to me: “Be kind to yourself!” Ever since hearing these words they have been stuck in my head. I started with how it feels to have someone be kind to you. I’ve been thinking about how you can be kind to yourself and benefits of doing so. Be Patient It is important to be patient with yourself if you are battling with a task. Now I think: “What if I had said that to myself and not relied on the teacher to divert me from unkind behavior towards myself?” Watch Your Words Everybody has self-talk or self-chatter. I know that if someone said directly to me some of the reprimands that I give myself, I would be extremely hurt. Encourage Yourself When things are tough or you are battling with something, encouragement is a wonderful means of giving you a boost. Forgive Forgiveness is often not easy. Give You give to others in order to rejuvenate them. Listen Allow Give Advice Photo by Nattu

Sign Painters: What a Disappearing Art Teaches Us About Creative Purpose and Process by Maria Popova “It is at the moment o f a craft’s disappearance that its cultural value suddenly becomes plain to see.” As a lover of exquisite hand-lettering, elegant vintage-inspired typography, and vibrant storefront signage, I was instantly smitten with Sign Painters (public library) — a stunning companion to Faythe Levine and Sam Macon’s documentary of the same title, exploring the disappearing art through interviews with some of its most prominent masters amidst a lavish gallery of extraordinary hand-painted signage, with a foreword by Ed Ruscha. But this is no mere eye candy — brimming with candid insights, personal stories, and wisdom on the creative life, the book envelops the “what” with rich and ample layers of the “how” and the “why.” Macon affirms this in the introduction: This book, like the job of the sign painter, isn’t always about eye-popping, flashy designs. In setting on this topic, Levine and Macon are just in time. Bigger and better machines became available.

Random Facts ← FACTSlides → Page #5 about Factslides a high traffic content website (over 1 million visits / month) that takes relevant and complex information from NGOs, think tanks, journals, specialized magazines and media and converts it into colorful and animated slideshows that are easy and fun to read, making the information accessible to students, teachers and curious minds for fun, research, lesson planning, and homework. Factslides is dedicated to provide well-sourced and verified information that will help young people access the information and critical thinking skills they need to make our world a better place. Launched in July, 2013, it has shown its facts over 1000 million times, and was selected among the Top 100 websites of 2013 by the prestigious PC Magazine, and as one of the 99 Sites That Every Professional Should Know About by BusinessInsider. It was also featured in sites such as The Awesomer, Design Taxi,, Neatorama, and DONG, a YouTube show with over a million subscribers.

Hey, i have a town, but i am really lonely. Anyone want to come live at valcar? I'm really good at teaching new players. : Civcraft Coding as a Liberal Art February 5, 12:30pm ETBerkman Center for Internet & Society, 23 Everett St, 2nd FloorRSVP required for those attending in person via the form belowThis event will be webcast live at 12:30pm ET. What is the purpose of a liberal arts education? Commencement speakers have assured generations of college graduates that the real value is less in what they've learned than in how they've learned to think. This talk will present a personal case study in learning to think through code. Along the way, it will argue that coding belongs not just on the periphery of the liberal arts, but at the center of a new canon. About Diana Diana is an MBA candidate at Harvard Business School. As a co-creator of ROFLCon, Diana's interest in internet culture runs deep. Links

Help Center – Mathematics for topcoders By dimkadimon topcoder member Introduction I have seen a number of competitors complain that they are unfairly disadvantaged because many topcoder problems are too mathematical. Personally, I love mathematics and thus I am biased in this issue. Nevertheless, I strongly believe that problems should contain at least some math, because mathematics and computer science often go hand in hand. It is hard to imagine a world where these two fields could exist without any interaction with each other. This article discusses the theory and practical application to some of the more common mathematical constructs. Primes A number is prime if it is only divisible by 1 and itself. for (int i=2; i<n; i++) if (n%i==0) return false; return true; We can make this code run faster by noticing that we only need to check divisibility for values of i that are less or equal to the square root of n (call this m). 2 is the first prime. The next non-crossed out number is 3 and thus it is the second prime.

This article is speaking about depression and the journey along the way. Some people may have a reason to feel depressed and wanting to be alone. But sometimes, people will just wake up one morning feeling sad or even nothing at all . You wonder to yourself why you have this horrible feeling of sadness and what is driving it. You know you are depressed, but there is no reason why. Along the way you lay down alot and sleep and feel as if you hate yourself. All you want to do it curl up in a corner and pretend you are not even there. After awhile, you finally go out despite your horrible feeling. You realize that this feeling will go away and you just have to try something that will make you feel happy. by bridgets_sstories Apr 8