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This is Why I'll Never be an Adult

This is Why I'll Never be an Adult
I have repeatedly discovered that it is important for me not to surpass my capacity for responsibility. Over the years, this capacity has grown, but the results of exceeding it have not changed. Normally, my capacity is exceeded gradually, through the accumulation of simple, daily tasks. But a few times a year, I spontaneously decide that I'm ready to be a real adult. The first day or two of my plans usually goes okay. For a little while, I actually feel grown-up and responsible. At some point, I start feeling self-congratulatory. This is a mistake. I begin to feel like I've accomplished my goals. What usually ends up happening is that I completely wear myself out. The longer I procrastinate on returning phone calls and emails, the more guilty I feel about it. Then the guilt from my ignored responsibilities grows so large that merely carrying it around with me feels like a huge responsibility. It always ends the same way. And then I rebel. Related:  13/2/7 - 00

Depression Part Two I remember being endlessly entertained by the adventures of my toys. Some days they died repeated, violent deaths, other days they traveled to space or discussed my swim lessons and how I absolutely should be allowed in the deep end of the pool, especially since I was such a talented doggy-paddler. I didn't understand why it was fun for me, it just was. But as I grew older, it became harder and harder to access that expansive imaginary space that made my toys fun. I remember looking at them and feeling sort of frustrated and confused that things weren't the same. I played out all the same story lines that had been fun before, but the meaning had disappeared. Depression feels almost exactly like that, except about everything. At first, though, the invulnerability that accompanied the detachment was exhilarating. The beginning of my depression had been nothing but feelings, so the emotional deadening that followed was a welcome relief. Which leads to horrible, soul-decaying boredom.

Interview with Nader Khalili, Cal-Earth Architect Nader Khalili began his career in Iran. By the 1970’s he headed a thriving practice specializing in skyscrapers with offices in Tehran and Los Angeles. But as the decade came to a close, he felt he'd lost his center. He gave up his lucrative practice and spent five years traveling the desert regions studying the vernacular architecture of his native country. In this interview, conducted in March 2005, Khalili talks about designing Lunar housing, working with the U.N., and his decision to abandon conventional wisdom and run his own race. Q: How did you start doing this kind of work? I really had a dream in my mind. I said ‘What if I set fire to earth buildings? When I closed my business I already had ten years of experience. Then I thought, why can't he race alone? Ceramic houses that was what I went after. When Iraq was bombing Iran, I was firing a school, and we were not supposed to have any light at night because of air raids. It’s not the time that arrives with an idea.

Domesticated silver fox The result of over 50 years of experiments in the Soviet Union and Russia, the breeding project was set up in 1959[1] by Soviet scientist Dmitri Belyaev. It continues today at The Institute of Cytology and Genetics at Novosibirsk, under the supervision of Lyudmila Trut. Initial experimentation[edit] In a time when centralized political control exercised over genetics and agriculture was an official state doctrine, known as Lysenkoism, Belyaev's commitment to classical genetics had cost him his job as head of the Department of Fur Animal Breeding at the Central Research Laboratory of Fur Breeding in Moscow in 1948.[2] During the 1950s, he continued to conduct genetic research under the guise of studying animal physiology. Belyaev believed that the key factor selected for in the domestication of dogs was not size or reproduction, but behavior; specifically, tameability. The project also investigated breeding vicious foxes to study aggressive behavior. Current project status[edit]

On a Beam of Light: The Story of Albert Einstein, Illustrated by the Great Vladimir Radunsky by Maria Popova The charming visual tale of an introverted little boy who grew up to become the quintessential modern genius. Given my soft spot for picture-book and graphic-novel accounts of famous lives, including Charles Darwin, Julia Child, Hunter S. The story begins with Albert’s birth — a beautiful but odd baby boy who turns one and doesn’t say a word, turns two, then three, and nary a word. Instead, he “just looked around with his big curious eyes,” wondering about the world. One day, when Albert was sick in bed, his father brought him a compass — a small round case with a magnetic needle inside. This was that pivotal spark of curiosity that catapulted his young mind into a lifetime of exploring those mysteries. Young Albert began asking countless questions at home and at school — so much so, that his teachers chastised him for being a disturbance, admonishing the little boy that he would get nowhere in life unless he learned to follow the rules and behave like the other kids.

Egocide and suicide | The Psychology of Me Lately, I’ve been thinking about egocide. (Why does my autocorrect want to change that to “geocode”??) I’m at the end of my rope and climbing back up is not an option. I’ve got to change. David Rosen, in his book Transforming Depression, describes egocide as “a symbolic killing of the ego that is experienced as ego death: a sacrifice of the ego to the Self, a higher principle.” The other day, as I was starting this post, I found a blog post about Buckminster Fuller’s egocide. Then, I was watching the last episode of Top of the Lake (streaming on Netflix) and there was the following conversation between Robin, the protagonist, and GJ, a guru-type. Robin: I don’t know how to keep living.GJ: So, you’re on your knees? Egocide is about death. The real question is: what images of myself, exactly, do I need to sacrifice? I don’t think there has to be something there to fill the gaping hole left by the sacrificed ego.

YC Sim's Blog - Making the Jump: my journey from Flash games to desktop games! The following blog post, unless otherwise noted, was written by a member of Gamasutra’s community. The thoughts and opinions expressed are those of the writer and not Gamasutra or its parent company. A few years ago, I made the huge decision to leave a comfortable, well-paying engineering job with a fairly large oil and gas firm to pursue a career as a game developer. In my country, Malaysia, that's a pretty strange career choice, in a land where many parents consider engineering and medicine as coveted jobs for their children. I don't make a life decision like that very lightly, of course, and I was already making sponsored games in my spare time by the time I left my job. First, a quick summary of my understanding of the Flash game market and the game developer's place in it, for those who are considering it as a career choice. I read in a PC Gamer article about the existence of Kongregate back when it first started in 2007, and decided to try my luck with a few unsponsored games.

Girl drinking Beer Bong at Phillies game,gets high-5 from cops LinkedIn Best Advice Danish Cops SkyFolio » So you want to work from home? Some of my students asked for tips about climbing the corporate ladder but truth be told, I hate the corporate ladder. Every time I find myself getting promoted, I end up resigning shortly after — even from my best employers. I had been a work-from-home person for most of my career because I usually earn money from writing and doing art/tech when I find myself getting tired of the corporate world. For 2013, my typical week is roughly: Mondays: (At home) Prepare lectures for 3 hours + do game production work for 5 hoursTuesdays to Thursdays: Teach / do academic admin work for 3 hours + (at home) do production work for 5 hoursFridays: (At home) Do game production work or write research + run errandsSaturday: Industry meetings Depending on which part of the quarter, there could be more academic work load than production work load. It sounds like I have a lot of free time, but this setup actually requires a lot of discipline. 5. 4. Just make sure that you stick to your calendar/planner. 3. 2.