Renee's Life With Borderline Personality Disorder. Living With Borderline Personality Disorder. I am in it right now and it terrifies me. At the moment I am between jobs, but one day I won’t be. That is, I won’t be until it happens again… Imagining a life of always having to live “between jobs” because of my unstable emotions makes me feel helpless. It makes my life feel meaningless. Empty. It always feels like I am waiting to catch up with life all around me but whenever it’s within arm’s reach I keep shooting myself in the foot. I used to latch on to my family for support, but they have so much of their own pain that I feel like I can’t be a burden to them anymore. I am in it right now and it terrifies me because I can’t get help.
I am trapped— My home is my prison, the air outside is poison and my mind is on fire. (I don’t know how to put trigger warnings, I’m sorry…) The Crazy Life of Renee. The Story of Raznay. Confessions From A Twenty-Something Fat Chick.