I'm a student from Brooklyn College. I love watching movies, going for adventure sports, cooking European dishes, and cuddling my pet dog, Miley. If you ask me, life is complete fun.
Life Doesn't Always Turn Out the Way we Want. I feel broken.
This pandemic has brought and/or forced so many families together, living in quarantine, cooking, baking, playing games, talking, drinking, laughing, making tik tok videos and so on. On social media, it looks like Leave It to Beaver meets The Brady Bunch meets Modern Family. Or something like that. All I know is everyone seems happy and closer than ever with their family. It has not done that for my family because my family is broken from divorce. Doing my best to do my best. I’m not sure why I haven’t blogged lately.
I have a lot on my mind and there’s a lot I think of writing about but then I can’t seem to get myself to sit down and do it. So here I am, finally… This is the second holiday season since my divorce. There’s no “I” in “TEAM” I have really wanted to avoid writing about the coronavirus altogether but here I am…holed up in my hotel room in Tempe, trying not to go out in public too much or too often and washing my hands ALL the time.
I had wanted to take my daughter out to nice dinners and do some fun things while I was here. Instead, we have mostly, not entirely, stayed in, and I have tried to help her prepare to be inside for awhile. Her school, ASU, is transitioning to online beginning Monday. Today the supermarket around here was nuts. There were no available shopping carts and the lines were extremely long.
We frequently talk about having to deal with various versions of a “new normal.” While this time is a daunting one for many of us, we all handle and process information differently. I’m heading back home in the morning, which is always a bittersweet time for me as I say goodbye to my baby girl. What Connects Us? Who do you Choose? - becominglinda.
What connects us?
What makes us choose the people we surround ourselves with? What are each of us looking for? Do we all want to make connections? Do some people look for people different from themselves to be around? Yet others look for people who are similar with shared interests and desires? I have no idea whatsoever what the answers are, let alone even my own answers, to all the above questions but I think they are interesting questions nonetheless. Feeling What I'm Feeling. Today marked a change for me.
I felt an emotion I hadn’t yet felt with regard to Covid -19 and all it entails. Before I share this emotion, I will say that up until now, I have been following recommendations and orders with regard to sheltering in place. I am staying at home for the most part, other than going out for very essential errands, ie pharmacy and grocery, as well as continuing to walk outside, both for myself and my two dogs. I have been staying up on the news, without overdoing it. I am trying to keep my mind and body busy, as well as staying connected with others, and enjoying the many funny texts and emails making the rounds. So…this new emotion? So now what? What Unites us Shouldn't Divide us..Especially During Covid-19. Shared grief.
Today's Lessons - BecomingLinda. I have a very close friend.
She buried one of her best friends a couple months ago. One month after that, her father passed away. One month after that, last week to be exact, her husband Mike contracted Guillain Barre Syndrome. Digging In - BecomingLinda. Belonging and Finding my Place. I belong to me.
I heard these words today from the wise Brene Brown. That more importantly than belonging to any other group, we must first know that we belong to ourselves. Both Sides, Stay Home, Go Out. This time is like no other.
I think we’ve all established that. It is also different things for different people. There are those who have never worked harder, day in and day out, doing everything they possibly can to save lives. Many are, admittedly, doing and seeing things they never imagined having to see or do. They are putting themselves, and sometimes their families, in harms’ way by treating infected patients. Covid 19 and the Screeching Halt.
I don’t know what to do right now because it seems like the world has come to a screeching halt.
These Words Mean Nothing - becominglinda. For the past 7 weeks I have watched a family’s struggle as their dad/husband’s health has deteriorated by a vile and despicable disease, not Covid-related, but sadly during Covid times. I have never before bore witness to such devastation by illness. I am horrified, heartbroken and just plain sad…and keep in mind, this is not happening to me. It’s not about me, not in any way, shape or form, except to say that to see someone I love go through such anguish and pain is absolutely terrible. And terrible doesn’t begin to do it justice. Terrible is just a word.